A Love letter to My Happy Soul

Love letters are timeless. It is not a thing in the past. Everyone wants to know how much someone loves them even if it hurts, even if it’s cheesy or funny. Who doesn’t? Loving someone and being loved in return have always been a great blessing!

Friends, you are about to read a love letter I wrote for my wife… prepare to cringe.

 

Dear My Love, 

They said that First Love never dies. Do you agree? If you ask me, I disagree because, most of the time, True Love always wins! 

As your husband and ONE TRUE LOVE, I want you to enjoy watching the video below.  It’s a footage we took in my room years ago using my laptop. Don’t worry… it is not very scandalous but I’m hoping it will give you a little bit of sugar rush before you read the rest of my letter.

Before anything else, allow me to ask… Are you ready to celebrate our 9th year anniversary? As much as we want to make it special by traveling or eating at a fancy restaurant, I know we can’t do any of it because we don’t have the extra cash and we don’t want to risk exposing ourselves to the most popular virus in the planet. So, I thought of writing you this letter instead to help us reminisce the past and appreciate how God magically intertwined our lives and be amazed that we are still together for nearly 10 years despite the challenges we face as a married couple. 

<<REWIND <<

A long long time ago, I was watching a school play called “Ang Pagluha ng Anghel” and for the first time, I saw you. You were on stage acting as an angel. It’s funny because 2 years later, I joined the same theatre organisation and acted as one of the protagonist of the same play but… you weren’t there. I don’t know exactly how we were introduced but your name was popular at school. We were merely acquainted to each other. 

By and by, we had a moment at a friend’s birthday party. I remember being invited in the rooftop, maybe I was a little tipsy then you saw me rap and sing. I was showing off or just disinhibited because I have alcohol in my system. Do you remember that? That party, that rooftop, that conversation lead into a few dates. Then, we both realised that we are not yet ready to be in a relationship . 

I was lonely for a long time and focused my attention in my career but I never forgot to pray for somebody to love. I read the book The Alchemist and saw this:

“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. Each thing has to transform itself into something better, and to acquire a new Personal Legend, until, someday, the Soul of the World becomes one thing only.” 

– Paulo C

 

>>FORWARD >>

A few years after our graduation, we saw each other in the church after a perpetual help novena and your best friend gave me your number. We had long conversations over text and I finally asked you to join me over lunch to eat my favourite crispy chicken meal. I was anxiously waiting for you at the restaurant and you arrived wearing a pair of jeans and a blue spaghetti strap top embellished with a sexy lace. As usual, you were looking all kinds of cute. I could smell your green cross perfume as you approached our table. hahaha! (I know you like the scent.) I can’t remember exactly our conversation but I remember that your braces, pretty eyes, cute nose and very sweet personality captivated me.  

THE UNIVERSE CONSPIRED. 

On December 2010, we were invited to join a Teatro de Sta Luisa (TSL) reunion. We were both single and actively searching for a partner. Both of us have moved on from previous relationships. That night, during the party, I wasn’t expecting that we will kiss each other… on the cheeks. *wink* Our clandestine communication continued until you texted me on…

June 15, 2011, you gave me 2 options.

A. I can court you and wait until you say yes.
B. Skip the Courtship and just be together.

Of course, I chose Letter B. I am not good in multiple choice questions but I know it’s the right answer. You didn’t want to see me as your suitor but you wanted to know me as your partner. Little did you know, my real courtship started a year after you said yes. It was obvious that I turned out to be a douche boyfriend (American slang hahaha). You were paranoid and disappointed because I never said I love you in the first year of our relationship. I remember we had discussions about the difference between a “real I love you” to the phrase “I love you because”. It was so silly. For sure, If you were the typical girlfriend of the 21st century, you would have broken up with me instantly. To my surprise, you stayed.. that captured my full attention. Despite my inconsistencies, you continuously nourished our relationship.

>>FAST FORWARD >>

Today, we are living in the UK. We are enjoying the married life for nearly 5 years. No kids yet but that’s okay. You got rid of your braces, I lost my hair and both of us gained a few kilos. Each day we learn something new from each other. Everyday, you become more and more beautiful to me. Yes, we have our own peaks and valleys but we learn to trust, support and appreciate each other along the way. So, let us not think that we are less than others because our plans didn’t turn the way we want to. God has a perfect plan for us. 

>> PAUSE>>

Let me ask you again my favourite question.

How much do you love me?

You know the answer to this question. I am not the same man a decade ago who tells you “I love you” because there is a worldly reason.  Confidently, I always say I LOVE YOU (PERIOD…TTT). Similar to God, I want our love for each other  to be a type of love that consumes.  

You know I can’t stop saying it a hundred times because it feels like my actions and words are not enough to let you know that you are very important to me. You are one of the people who constantly cuts through my noisy mind and brings harmony over and over in my life. Do you remember I posted once on facebook a caption in my cover photo?

I wrote,”What else can I say other than I love you? I feel like I’ve said it a million times. Will I ever get tired of saying that?… I love you.”

It is not an original caption because I probably read it somewhere but it is true. I never get tired of saying it because what else can we ever say other than I love you? 

>> PLAY>>

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY LOVE! 

   

Your Loving Husband, 
Pao

 

We have been together as a couple for almost a decade and got married for nearly 5 years,

 

let us look back at these photos…One picture each year to remind us of a romantic event we had that time.





2010

A few months before you said yes. TSL Reunion.

2011

Playing outside our house. You were wondering why I don’t respond to your texts. haha!

2012

We celebrated your 20ish birthday by swimming and eating at the greenwich restaurant.

2013

Sunday Feeding with SSVP.

2014

Just before the new year celebration. 





2015

Watching a movie 

2016

On the sheets 

2017

HOLY – High on Loving you

2018

Meeting in Baguio after an LDR Mode

2019

Time out with friends in London

“Ganito lang ako simpleng tao, ang maipagyayabang ko lang sa’yo… ang pag-ibig ko.” – Gloc 9

My love, let us be inspired by God’s love for us. He should be the source of love to each other. A love that consumes. 

“Agape is total love. It is the love that consumes the person who experiences it. Whoever knows and experiences agape learns that nothing else in the world is important – just love. – The Pilgrimage – Paolo Coelho”